(From 2008… what a trip it’s been.)
So I’ve gone through some pretty big changes over the past year.
Not the least of which were both an end to a relationship, and a move. Those are just two of many.
And it’s not just happening to me – most everyone I know has been experiencing these same fundamental shifts.
We all go through changes – but these changes, for both me and these others, have been profound – not just in logistics or relationship, but in mindset and consciousness.
Initially, it felt like being tossed into a pretty big whirlwind – and “Dorothy moments” are not exactly the times where one begins healthy self-examination… you’re too busy waiting for the house to stop spinning.
But sooner or later, one might stop and say “hey… wait just a minute here!”
Which I did.
I’ve never been an out-and-out doormat… but when I look back through my life, there have been countless times where I didn’t advocate for myself. I was a “go along to get along” kind of person – and what resulted was an emptiness, because I wasn’t insisting on what I needed… from a partner, or a client, a friend, or, most importantly – from myself.
I went through life expecting that sooner or later, things would change for me…. that my partners would give the love I needed, that my music would be recognized for what I’ve always known it should be… that, in some fundamental way, I’d feel complete – if I just kept waiting – and being the awesome full-of-love-and-potential me that is me.
See, I had unconsciously come to see myself as a work-in-progress… that I was full of potential, and that at some point I’d have fixed what I needed to fix, and then my life would really begin. Read more